I am feeling sick this morning. Not literally, but emotionally. That's always how I feel when I know I have let my kids down. Especially when they have worked so hard.
Last night Stephen played his last Sophomore football game for the year as well as his last JV game. It was a busy night. I had activity days and an appointment and Mike had to take Bryce to a concert at the high school for his music class. So, since the high school is so close we went to the games off and on throughout the night. Grandma Nelson was great and attended both games beginning to end. She was Stephen's greatest support yesterday. However, by the time the second game was over, no one was there and Stephen felt very unloved:( The first thing he did is text me and ask where we were. I told him that we had been there but that I had an appointment, but it didnt matter because when he finally finished and looked in the stands for his family...we werent there. I am sick, sick, sick! Mike and I felt like a couple of "Loser Parents" last night!
Stephen is a fantastic football player and often is the guy making the touchdowns for his team, so it is very exciting to watch him play. However, last night he did not do as well as he usually does (even though he still made a couple of touchdowns) and so I know that made it even worse. Many of his friends parents drive 3-4 hours away to watch their kids play football and we never did. So, we probably look like the non-supportive parents of the bunch. Anyway, Stephen is usually pretty understanding but last night was the breaking point for him. Not only was it his last games, but he also needed to see our support because he did not play as well as he had hoped. This moring when he left he did not say a whole lot to me. I want to cry:(
We really are not bad parents...I swear... we usually go to all his games. We did miss 2 or 3 this year though. So, I've learned my lesson. It's not so much that we cant ever miss, it's just that some games you just CANT miss... which are...Homecoming game, biggest Rival game, at least one of the far away games, and the LAST games....oh, and be in the stands when he is finished and MAKE SURE he sees us! I dont mean to be A Bad Mom.....I really dont. I love my Sugar Bear! You better believe we will be there tonight for his last Varsity Game...I hope he does something amazing!!!
p.s. thanks for your input on the gables....still up in the air but I'll let you know what we decide.